It's been a tiring week of exams and it's just ONE step before it ends... It's art tomorrow and i've drawn an eagle as well as passion flower =) Finished everything except final draft.. I wanted to start painting already and realise that i didn't have any container in my house to store water! So well , i waited and waited and gave up waiting and proceeded on to blading =) Because there's not a need to study for art , that's the reason why i went rollerblading..

I lost my sense of blading and things go haywire... I've learnt a lesson from today.. Never go fast and try to slide when you've not bladed for a long time.. You're going to cry your sorry ass.. So yeah.. Me and Liang Xian acting smart , chiong down the slope.. Nothing happened until Liang Xian didn't see the hump and flew of it and ended up with multiple injuries.. Then i wanted to stop to check on him... Great.. What a fantastic idea.. I attempted powerslide and lost all control and slided on my back before sliding on my elbow... Bleed T.T So i went to Liang Xian and he was like bleeding everywhere .. lol.. So we went to wash up in some nearby toilet ..

Then we moved on to area 3 where we went to the shop uncle and had a chat with him before going to the training ring to practice our skills.. I went in and tried to parallel slide but somehow overslide and fall.. Zzzz.. Then Jonathan came along and we play play play... Then XinYing come jogging .. So i go pei her.. Then Jonathan and Liang Xian stalking me because I 'shen shen mi mi' haha.. I had a strong feeling they were stalking me .. So when i turned.. i saw them T.T

Then met XinYing and Liang Xian and Jonathan come and make up dumb stories.. Zzzz... Then XinYing don't want me pei her ask me go to Liang Xian and Jonathan then Liang Xian and Jonathan ask me go to her T.T Stuck at nowhere.. Zzz.. So in the end i went with Liang Xian and Jonathan and went back to area 3 and practice our skills again.. Then XinYing i don't know jog or walk to area 3 then we talk talk lor..

Then she go home le then me and Liang Xian play a while more.. Basket.. We go inside the ring , the people come out .. We go out , they go in.. Zzz.. Make us look like raiders.. Wtf.. Went home in pain wtf.. Suddenly stomach pain .. Zzz.. Then go home le bathe then use com then suddenly stomach pain again .. I shall not go into the details about what happened in the toilet.. It was a war.. That's all i can say.. It's all up to you how you want to think about it =)

Tomorrow art exam.. I finished my layouts , drawn my picture , waiting to paint.. I going to start painting at 8.. Got my mom to bring back 2 containers , one for now and the other one for tomorrow art exam to use.. Just 1 more exam.. Let's pray that i don't mess up =)

All must jia you ar.. Chiong your art.. And don't think about your examinations that pass le.. Think about the next.. Don't let your old stuff affect the new.. Jia you all..

Tonight was really depressing.. The nights seemed darker than it use to be.. I am stressed by the stinking art piece i owned.... It looked like total shit and i'm so unsatisfied with it.. Jokes no longer seemed like jokes... All they can do is make me feel empty... Thankfully with XinYing around.. She tried to cheer me up.. Thanks XinYing.. But i was too depressed.. I broke down.. I couldn't help but let my tears roll down.. She stayed up with me all the way until 11 pm and she has examinations tomorrow.. I'm feeling very remorseful about this matter.. I'm sorry XinYing.. And i didn't mean to bring your moods down.. I just couldn't help it but start to feel depress.. I'm lost why i was feeling depressed.. When i look out , i see emptiness.. I feel lonesome.. Finished my art which was a total failure.. I hate painting.. Painting makes me life dull.. Colours are dull when painting.. I never want to paint again.. It's the worse thing ever.. After XinYing gone to sleep , i finished my background and everything.. I've never felt so depressed in my life.. Are my feelings starting to unfold itself? Why is the impact so great.. I'm really grateful i have a friend like XinYing who stay by my side when i need her most.. A person i can rely on .. A person i can trust .. Thank you XinYing.. You've been by my side during my darkest period and cheered me on when i needed encouragement to move on..You've been such a great friend... I never had such a friend who cared so much for me.. Once again , thank you..

†God† Is Always With Me Even On Thursday, May 08, 2008